It was a beautiful day out, the sun was shining and I woke up feeling ready to take on the day. That is until I got to work. I did not realize this at first, but almost immediately my mood changed. As the day dragged on I noticed that my emotions were not improving, in fact, I was feeling worse than before.
My coworker, who is a sexist ass, by the way, decided that it would make him feel better to 'call me out' on the things he felt that I was doing wrong. Over the past week he created a list of complaints he had against me. Some of the things that he mentioned were so ridiculous and false that it was almost funny, except the fact that there was nothing funny about the way that this made me feel. This all seemed so petty, and he was getting off on being mean. I do not and will not ever understand why people feel the need to put others down. The biggest issue he had against me was the way that I talked to him in front of peers. I have always given him more respect than he has ever shown me, so this came as a surprise.
During the meeting I was able to keep it together despite the attack against me. After the meeting, I was not in control anymore. My eyes started to water uncontrollably and I could not focus on anything. I went home that night feeling the same as I always do after work, sad, alone and hurt. It really did not click that my job was causing these episodes. Depression can be so random that trying to break it down and make sense of it all seems impossible at times. I began researching this and found that I am not alone and that this is common. I found several articles that supported this and as I was reading through these I started to see a pattern. I then started to look into other industries that have high reports of employee depression. Below is a list of jobs that frequently contribute to depression and anxiety.
My coworker, who is a sexist ass, by the way, decided that it would make him feel better to 'call me out' on the things he felt that I was doing wrong. Over the past week he created a list of complaints he had against me. Some of the things that he mentioned were so ridiculous and false that it was almost funny, except the fact that there was nothing funny about the way that this made me feel. This all seemed so petty, and he was getting off on being mean. I do not and will not ever understand why people feel the need to put others down. The biggest issue he had against me was the way that I talked to him in front of peers. I have always given him more respect than he has ever shown me, so this came as a surprise.
During the meeting I was able to keep it together despite the attack against me. After the meeting, I was not in control anymore. My eyes started to water uncontrollably and I could not focus on anything. I went home that night feeling the same as I always do after work, sad, alone and hurt. It really did not click that my job was causing these episodes. Depression can be so random that trying to break it down and make sense of it all seems impossible at times. I began researching this and found that I am not alone and that this is common. I found several articles that supported this and as I was reading through these I started to see a pattern. I then started to look into other industries that have high reports of employee depression. Below is a list of jobs that frequently contribute to depression and anxiety.
Nursing home and child care workers
Food service staff
Social workers
Health care workers
Artists, writers and entertainers
Teachers
Administrative support staff
Maintenance and ground workers
Financial advisers and accountants
Sales people
So my advice for all my 'Mad Hatters' out there is to get out and get happy, what I mean by this is getting out of the job that you are in and get into one that will make you happy. I know that there are several reasons why people cannot up and quit their job but if your job is contributing to your panic attacks, anxiety or depression then the best avenue is to get out and be on your way to a happier you.
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